silly_cleo: A girl in a leotard stretching over a ballet bar. (dancing! - girl stretching)
IDK, I just fancied it. ;D

1. Your main fandom of the year?

Mass Effect? :D? Like I'm not sure what else I did this year, fannishly, apart from play all 3 games at [personal profile] carawj's house. ;D Granted I started last December, but still. (Mass Effect really deserves a post all its own and that may well come, I'm kind of in a DW mood at the mo.)

2. Your favourite film watched this year?

Ghostbusters. I went with [personal profile] spiderwolves and E, and literally, she and I spent the whole time clutching each other and soundlessly screaming, it was wonderful. (I'm actually struggling to remember what other films I saw in cinemas this year. I did enjoy the new Star Trek, but mostly cuz of how much the people I went with loved it. <3 Other than that *what other new films did I even watch, help*)

3. Your favourite book read this year?

This has been a rubbish book year for me, mostly see answer to question 1. *glances at goodreads* Like seriously, even the perpetual Vorkosigans re-read only got as far as 'Cordelia's Honour', which is always a contender for best book I've read any given year.

Although so saying, on closer examination of goodreads I am being unfair, I did discover Frances Hardinge in the spring, not to mention The Goblin Emperor. I think The Goblin Emperor or Gullstruck Island is my favourite book this year, actually.

4. Your favourite TV show of the year?

Supergirl, no question. <3 (Possibly also the only new TV show I watched this year...? IDK, I'm v tired as I write this and it's hard to remember things that aren't Mass Effect.)

5. Your favourite online fandom community of the year?

This has been quite an offline year fannishly in some ways, see question 1 again. So probably the Vidukon lot and smaller corners like me, the C's, [personal profile] tellitslant and [personal profile] sophia_gratia being cranky femslash old ladies, or [personal profile] beccatoria and [personal profile] chaila's Diana blanketfort of squee I'm a periodic visitor of. <3 Plus like, the fannish part of twitter is always a delight, too many people to list there. And like, lots of my fav fannish people are as much RL as online, which is still super great. <3

6. Your best new fandom discovery of the year?

...Mass Effect? :D (Technically 2015 but wow I had no idea when I started. I thought I did BUT NO.)

7. Your biggest fandom disappointment of the year?

Person of Interest. I haven't seen season 5, though I am VERY spoiled for it. It definitely sounds like it was great, and even my issues are redeemable and I know it's made lots of people so hapy but for me all the fix-it fic and openess of the ending don't make up for it being the dead lesbian straw that broke this lesbian camel's back. It was the one I had set my heart on not going for the trope, and then they did, and just felt so disappointed and heartsick I haven't been able to face season 5, and I can't really see myself doing so anytime soon.

8. Your TV boyfriend of the year?

Come again? (I mean, if I have to have one, can I at least say Garrus Vakarian or Lin-Manuel Miranda?)

9. Your TV girlfriend of the year?

I mean, if it has to be TV probably Alex Danvers or CJ Cregg, but I think we all know it's Liara T'Soni. ;D

10. Your biggest squee moment of the year?

Oh, gosh. *Finishing* Mass Effect doesn't really qualify, cuz while that was amazing, squee is not the word. (Though playing Citadel DLC might. ;D)) I think the Wonder Woman trailer in the summer ranks pretty highly though, I flipped my shit fairly epically about that.

Oh no. Oh wait. (This is how sleep deprived I am writing this.) How could I say anything else? So I never told this story on DW, just on Twitter, but I went to the US for two very dear friends' wedding (to each other) this summer and while in NYC I tried my darndest to go see Hamilton AND SUCCEEDED. So THAT WAS PROBABLY IT REALLY. (I also saw Fun Home and Colour Purple, which lacked the ridiculousness of my Hamilton tale, but were still incredible.)

11. The most missed of your old fandoms?

I dunno, actually. Which is probably good. I do like [personal profile] netgirl_y2k's answer about missing Terry Pratchett's voice this year of all years though.

12. The fandom you haven't tried yet, but want to?

I'm very happy with Mass Effect, thank you. ;D (Mind you, [personal profile] carawj is flirting with Critical Role, so given I'm still reeling from the last time she jumped into a new fandom, maybe that? I guess there's also Dragon Age.

Also it has now been like 8 years since [personal profile] cosmic_llin and I became friends (to the day on Facebook even!) and for 7 of those years she's been trying to get me to watch Voyager, so like, this is just mean at this point. Why am I even like this. We just don't know. And I even know I'm totally cutting off my own nose to spite my face, AND YET.

13. Your biggest fan anticipations for the New Year?

OK, so I basically filled this thing in for a) Mass Effect yelling but b) NEXT YEAR IS THE WONDER WOMAN MOVIE AND I A LITTLE BIT FORGOT TILL I READ [personal profile] netgirl_y2k's ANSWER. SERIOUSLY SELF PRESERVATION MEANS I FORGET THIS FROM TIME TO TIME AND OH MY GOD. Like. I can't help it, every trailer and image I've seen, every interview I've read just ramps my expectations up further, I did, at some distant point, try to keep them low, but BOY THAT SHIP HAS SAILED SO DAMN FAR, I THINK IT MIGHT HAVE LIKE, BECOME SPACE-WORTHY AND BE ON ITS WAY TO ANOTHER SOLAR SYSTEM.
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I stared at my remaining topics and wasn't sure which I felt like talking about, and then I landed on this one because I finally picked a fandom to talk about. ;D I've been struggling with this one ever since [personal profile] carawj requested it because I'm pretty generous in what I define as an active fandom. Like thanks to Tumblr I consider say, Harry Potter, Buffy (ETA: turns out I lied and can't talk about Angel without Buffy), Xena, and Farscape to be fairly active fandoms for me because they come up on my dash a lot, I re-watch eps periodically, I watch vids, I ponder and read meta, so they were all out, and they're some of my oldest fandoms.

I also pondered and rejected Doctor Who because dear show, I feel like I already expend more energy on you and justifying our break-up than is good for me at the mo.

And I regularly re-read say, the Vorkosigan Saga and Robin Hobb, so they're also out.

I briefly considered 'Grey's Anatomy' cuz I had a really fun conversation with someone on twitter about it earlier this evening but maybe another time as this is SO LONG.

Shows I've come to in the last 5 years don't even count as nostalgic yet, so that rules out a LOT. ;)

But! As I mentioned in my entry earlier, I've fallen down a 'Person of Interest'-shaped rabbit-hole, which is ENTIRELY because of Amy Acker, for whom I have a huge thing. And I tend to forget this is the case until I actually see her moving and talking in something? Like stills and even gifsets don't really convey it? But anyway, this has sort of been simmering since [personal profile] purplefringe's beautiful Festivid last year, with which I am slightly obsessed, and then I saw [personal profile] isagel's fantastic character study from POI, and like months later, here we are. ;)

The problem here is that prolonged pondering about Amy Acker inevitably leads me back to Angel in the end, and for various reasons, I haven't hung on to Angel over the years the way I have Buffy. But, because of the Amy Acker thing, it has been on my mind lately more than usual.

(Btw, this entry is going to have massive spoilers for all of Buffy and Angel, so if you're in the process of watching those, or plan to watch them some day, look away.) Cut for length, but as yet, no spoilers. I'll let you know when I hit those. )

OK, here be spoilers. )

Like it would be ridiculous and untrue to say I'm not capable of the depth of feeling I had for Buffy and Angel but they're both wrapped around my me-ness and personality in ways it's harder for things to be as I get older, because my personality and sense of self are more formed.

As an aside, they're the first fandoms I shared with Alex. Like we met through mutual friends in Gargoyles fandom, but we were both done with Gargoyles by the time we started hanging out. She's hugely responsible for my Tara love, I didn't like her at first because I missed Oz. (I know, I know.) We used to hotly debate Buffy/Angel vs Cordelia/Angel. She was very sympathetic (and frequently mocking) over my Fred feelings. My LJ still has an Alex-only filter, and if I ever let another living human being on that filter, they would find hundreds of comments, because that's how we used to talk to each other, and lots of them are about our Buffy and Angel re-watches. We didn't simul-watch because time-zones can bite me but we used to watch more or less concurrently a lot.

Heh, she tried to get me to watch Justice League Unlimited because so many Jossverse alums voiced the characters, chiefly Amy Acker as Huntress.

I don't really know how to wrap this one up. I don't even know what it'll be like to read, it's very introspective (navel-gazey ;)) and rather sentimental. Thinking it over I don't think it's age or depth of feeling that's different about how I watch TV, it's critical thinking. When I watch TV or movies or read a book now I can't switch off pondering whether it has passed the Bechdel test yet, where are the queers, where are the PoC, hey, that woman just got put in a fridge*. Etc. And I wouldn't change that even if I could, even though it makes me a killjoy sometimes, but I'm also glad I got to watch Buffy and Angel BEFORE I learned to do that. (Also I think I worked through a lot of my feelings about relating to canons and problematic canons and how to be a fan of problematic things through Buffy and Angel. Like there was a point where it was important to me to like everything about every aspect of the show, so I worked hard to say, love freaking Spike and Riley, and it was freeing to work out that I didn't have to do that.)

Like I often talk about how much I've learnt about feminism and equality and intersectionality from fandom, and it's TRUE. I am not sure I even gave credit to how much that's true until I wrote all this down.

(My god, I am so sorry about how long this one is.)

*Not to say every type of media I consume is a paragon of representation or anything, VERY far from it, but part of the automatic process of watching that is critiquing it.
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I'm so behind with these. Shocker. IDK. I'm sorry. I finished work on the 19th, then I had to write my Yuletide, do last-minute Xmas stuff, and obviously actual Xmas (which was surprisingly OK). All of which was fine and great, but looking back on the last few days I really have just collapsed like a puppet whose strings have been cut. Er, I also fell down a 'Person of Interest' shaped rabbit-hole. Which I may write about at some point soon. 's been fun. ;D

Tbh, I think it's been good and I was due a break. I owe comments and December posts and a couple of drabbles and a podfic, and there's other stuff I feel moved to do, and I think I'll actually be able to move on to all that lot soon.

BUT ANYWAY. Enough of that. [personal profile] goodbyebird asked me to talk about all my Wonder Woman clothes and accessories! :D And I figured since it's her birthday it might be nice to get the right day for this one. Happy birthday, sweetie, hope you've had a lovely day and fun and gorgeous presents. <3

So it's no secret I have a) a massive Wonder Woman thing b) love clothes and dressing up and c) am a cosplayer and 'stealth' cosplayer. (Too lazy to link but last year I talked about this for one of my December memes!) This means a) I buy myself a lot of WW stuff and b) it's a great present avenue for OTHERS. I'm now, as requested, going to talk about all my WW stuff and also how I acquired it. ;D

I did consider taking a PHOTO of me wearing all my WW stuff but I realised I can't actually wear it all at once, plus I'm lazy. Sorry. Anyway. ;D

It started with one T-shirt from Primark, which I still have, and is much loved.

I don't remember the order perfectly, but I've cosplayed as WW for both Nine Worlds so far, so I have several red tops I use for that, that I count as WW stuff. I have a vest, a t-shirt, several jerseys. An increasingly worn blue skirt with white polka-dots on it. I've got some bracelets made of silver card that also double up for my Thor cosplay. I've got some beautiful bracelets [personal profile] shinyjenni *made for me*. I've got THREE tiaras, one I made from gold and red glittery card, one felt one [ profile] minihannah gacve me for my birthday (or Christmas? My memory stinks) last year, one that a coworker CROCHETED for me as a goodbye present. [personal profile] spiderwolves gave me some cute elasticated faux red boots with the white stripe. I've got scads of gold ribbon I use as lasso, lasso-as-hair-control, belt, W, as I see fit.

For Christmas (or my birthday??) last year, [personal profile] carawj got me a beautiful necklace that I wear almost every day. I need to learn to clean copper jewellery.

For my birthday this year, [personal profile] carawj and [ profile] Shiiuga BOTH got me Wonder Woman bags, one is a beautiful handbag I wear all the time, the other is a gorgeous tote from Red Bubble that's done like it's for Themyscira the sports (rollerderby LBR) team. As I use totes almost every day for the stuff I can't fit in my handbag (I know) sometimes I wear them both at the same time and it's the BEST.

[personal profile] shinyjenni also got me WW-themed stuff for my birthday this year. A gorgeous length of navy blue ribbon with stars and the W across it that I frequently wear in my hair, a little W necklace that sits perfectly on my chest to stealthily simulate the W on Diana's chest. And a little lego WW that lives on my bedside table.

This year [personal profile] cosmic_llin gave me a book on Amazons, no doubt in large part due to my WW thing, though obv Amazons are RTMI anyway and the Diana thing is a little bit because of that. I got given a Greg Rucka comic for my birthday last year. (Only like the best one, i.e., Eyes of the Gorgon. <3)

I bought myself a WW iPad case. Also at some point another Primark T-shirt. Also er, *coughs* two pairs of WW converse, though the high tops don't fit and I need to sell them. (*sob*)

For Christmas, my little sister gave me WW headphones. (She overheard me tell dad I wanted them and went to quite a lot of effort to find them as I hadn't mentioned where she could buy them. <3) I can't usually tolerate big over-ear headphones but for this pair and my little sister's effort, I'm gonna see if I can figure it out.

I think that might be all my WW stuff?? (All. *snort*)

ETA: Oh! Make-up! I used to have all the colours to do WW nails, but need to replace red and blue as I was sharing [ profile] minihannah's while we lived together. I also have colours to do WW eye-shadow. :D

Now I've written it all down, it's making me think of other stuff I'd like. I'd love more WW-themed make-up. I'd love WW tights or leggings. I'd also love a dress, or that jumper pattern that goes around Tumblr sometimes. There can never be too many necklaces. Hair clips maybe? There can also never be too many t-shirts and sweaters and stuff. Basically if you're ever stuck for a present to give me you'll be hard-pressed to go wrong with Wonder Woman clothes or accessories. And even if I already have it, you can bet I'm loving and wearing and using it to death and will be so grateful for a replacement. ;D <3
silly_cleo: Close up of feet in satin pink ballet pointe shoes and pink tights, one foot pointed, the other flat on the ground. (dancing! - pointe shoes)
So [ profile] livii asked me to talk a bit more about Irreverent Dance as my first December topic! :D (If you asked for a fic or podfic for donating to the Kickstarter, I will totally get to those this month! Er, unless your name begins with K in which case I’m working on it. Also it’s not too late to ask if you still want to!) (ALSO if you haven't asked me to talk about something, or you have and want me to talk about TWO things, I have LOTS of slots left! :D) (Also, sorry it's late, [ profile] livii!)

No lie, I was hoping somebody would, so here we go.

I’d actually been aware of Irreverent Dance for just over a year (and they’ve been going now for close to two and a half I think) but what with one thing and another, didn’t actually make it to a class until August this year. I was a bit worried about it at first just because it had been ages since I’d danced regularly, and I was lighter and thinner then and have had a lot more issues with injuries since, so I had various expectations and concerns.

I DID find my body could not do things as well or as easily as I remembered, but I also found it didn’t much matter. One of the many things I think is amazing about ID is that when they say beginner/all levels, they actually mean it. So many other dance classes I’ve attended that say ‘beginner’ are actually either used as a warm up by advanced students (which is fine, as far as it goes) and thus cater to those students (NOT fine) or the ‘beginners’ there have been at that class for a long time and just not progressed, so they have a lot more familiarity than new students, and the class is still geared to them. Assuming everyone has a 101 understanding of anything is really alienating to beginners in any kind of class/teaching environment, and most dance classes, even ones geared at adult supposed beginners, have no understanding of that.

ID really does start from 0, no previous knowledge is assumed, but at the same time, as a relatively experienced dancer, I found going back to basics really useful. I can’t speak for any of the other teachers (yet! :D) but the founder, Amanda, is a really gifted teacher, I’m not the only student who’s found that her explanation of concepts has stuck in a way others’ haven’t. I also found that it didn’t matter that I couldn’t do things as well as I remembered, because the point was just being able to do it as well as *I* could. Working with the body I have, rather than against it, or being mad at it. I’m finding dancing again, specifically with ID, really helpful for the misc body issues I carry around.

And now it’s 3 and a bit months better and I’ve fallen in love with dance all over again! <3 The BEST bit about Irreverent Dance is it gives me all the things I ADORE about dancing, without all the negatives. It’s not a secret that the dance world and body issue and negativity go hand in hand, so to be somewhere where the fact I’m fat has nothing to do with how good or bad a dancer I am, or in fact, how good or bad a dancer I am has nothing to do with my worth inside the classroom, is wonderful. (I’m not happy with that sentence, but I am happy with its sentiment!)

I’m so excited we’ve got our own studio now!

And of course, the other thing I love about ID is that I said ‘we’ in that last sentence. It’s not just a dance studio, it’s a community. I’m lucky, I have a few close friends I adore, and several larger communities I’m lucky to be a part of and am also extremely fond of, but that is certainly not true for everyone, particularly queer folks. I’ve felt really welcomed by ID, and I can see how it’s an important social space for a lot of the members, and it’s lovely to be a part of that. Like I got a really warm, unclique-y welcome, and you can never know too many good people, really. <3

Like, class and rehearsals and the one performance I’ve done so far have just been such a FUN experience. When I was little, I used to get sent outside for giggling ALL THE TIME (actually, that just happened at school too, not just dance class. I’m sure you’re all stunned.) and obviously I get that from wee!Cleo’s teachers’ POV, but it’s so nice to learn in such a light, laughing environment. Like I said, Amanda is a great teacher, and she puts a lot of herself out there in her teaching, in making a connection with us so everyone feels fun and safe, and the result is a really nice camaraderie in the class. For example, all ballet moves tend to have their proper French name, and our own name. (E.g. ronde de jambe en l’air (spelling bad) is also known as tentacle legs. Or when we are reminded to keep our chests high, we are supposed to imagine we are Iron Man. Or we learned assembles, which are called that because your feet assemble in the air, LIKE THE AVENGERS. Second position is the shape your arms would make if you were hugging Totoro. Nobody likes the Polka. Everyone cheers everyone else when they achieve air time pictures of jumps.)

When they say they’re gender neutral and for all levels, they MEAN it. Everyone learns everything regardless of their gender, assigned at birth, chosen, perceived or otherwise. Pointe is open to everyone, allegro and adagio are open to everyone, everyone learns to lead and follow. There is a lot of emphasis on self-care, and letting the teacher know your injuries at the start of class, and only doing stuff that is comfortable, working with your body, not punishing it, while still stretching and pushing yourself, just safely.

I can’t wait to do many many more classes, I feel so supported by the space, the teachers, and the other students that I'm hoping to try lots more things I wouldn't have felt confident enough to do before.

I could probably go on a bit more, but I'm already a few days late with this, and you definitely get the gist! (If you have questions, please obviously ask away!) Plus, I'm sure ID will work its way into my next post, which is also dance-related. :D <3
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A meme! Nicked from everyone!

Topic open house for December!

Pick a date in December and give me a topic, and I'll say things about it. It can be anything you want; personal, fannish, work-related, political, favourite memories, travel, whatever.

I reserve the right to hand-wave at prompts that I don't feel equipped to meet.

(I'm rather late for the 1st but if you request in the next hour or so I'll do it. :D)

December 1:
December 2:
December 3:
December 4: tv shows you love / hate / want to watch / want others to watch, for [personal profile] tellitslant
December 5: thoughts on Stephanie Brown, for the totally unpredictable [personal profile] shinyjenni ;)
December 6: Talk about performing! for [personal profile] such_heights
December 7: Big Finish Audios! What is your favourite (or talk about your favourites)? Why? for an anon on LJ! (Huh!)
December 8:
December 9:
December 10:
December 11: GARGOYLES. ALL THE GARGOYLES. EVERYTHING TO DO WITH GARGOYLES, for [personal profile] beccatoria
December 12:
December 13:
December 14:
December 15: 5 books you'd take to a desert island, for [personal profile] netgirl_y2k
December 16: Puppies! for [personal profile] carawj, who is a brat. ;D
December 17:
December 18:
December 19: Why You Femslash, for [personal profile] cantarina
December 20: Underrated femslash ships OR favorite ship tropes, for [personal profile] metatxt
December 21:
December 22: Things you still find weird about the UK, for [personal profile] cosmic_llin
December 23:
December 24:
December 25:
December 26: Any thoughts about Kalinda on The Good Wife, for [personal profile] quarter_to_five//Favourite character from Warehouse 13, for [personal profile] jelazakazone (HARD!!)//stealth cosplay!, for [personal profile] tellitslant
December 27:
December 28: Kathryn Janeway, for [personal profile] cantarina
December 29:
December 30:
December 31: ice cream, for [personal profile] tellitslant


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